I`m already getting booed - reality dramedy

i`m getting a lot of throat clearing right now as i start righting on my blog but things have been moving at a pretty quick clip in what i would like to call the reality dramedy.

First , there was the coming into my dorm room in what felt like an audition with residents discussing their lives in what seemed like monologues written for actors. I even said, It feels like some of them are auditioning; and then while watching tv , one resident let out a "the audition was mad funny" which added an absurdist twist to the whole thing which is my already frazzled self. i`m leaving a lot out...


second, after writing (going off) about the spying on me, i sat down at the library and this guy walks by and says: "oh, it`s a shelter".

then, one resident retaliated with :"you`re a fucking idiot" which if you understand fucking in this as a verb and not a modifier then i would agree , i am a fucking idiot. (I`m getting booed again). which makes me think of one resident way back in december who said of someone: fucking cunt: i thought, my cunt don`t fuck and hasn`t for some time now. N.O.W., N.O.W., don`t be offended.

I hear background voices: there gonna call n.o.w. on her; she`s gonna call n.o.w on them...



third, after my make yourselves visible post, A councillor doing the morning dorm
rounds, says to me while i`m still in bed: " show me your face, let me see who you are."

The same councillor another morning, responds to my "they`ll respond" with :"respond".

Now, i,m hearing : i`m already getting tongue wiich must be a reference to my sticking out my tongue to the woman i hope dies in a horrifying way and was responded with "they killed her off". i never see her anymore.